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Retail TherapySunday, October 22, 2006This is crazy. I've been really upset the past few weeks with so many things. It's like, everything's going wrong after a year plus of happiness. Seriously, I used to be so happy and smiley and carefree last time, but now I just feel all upset and poo all the time. I don't know why. I lost my iPod on Friday the 13th; no wait, someone stole my iPod from my bag on Friday the 13th. How apt eh? It just totally ruined my day. I already planned to go shopping with Laura, Jon and my Mom, and have dinner and all that shit, but I lost the mood and went for dinner with my Mom instead (I told both of them they need not come already). During dinner at Jack's Place, my steak wasn't cooked the way I wanted it - medium to well done. When I cut the steak, there was so much blood oozing out. Fuck. Got it recooked though, still not nice. Last Thursday, I lost my handphone pouch at I-don't-remember-where. All I knew was that I was on the phone with Putri (or was it Jolene?), walking through SIM to get a cab to that Lana Cake Shop. I was in a rush so I didn't bother going back to Radio class to find it. Friday. My sister wanted the whole family to be home for dinner because it was her (and my Mom's) birthday. So I skipped my driving practical, and took a cab home from town. I was a bit late, but she was even later. She got back home at 7.50pm. Yesterday, my Mom was supposed to go shopping with Putri and I, but she ended up going to Geylang instead. Why? The night before I said that I'd wake up late. Then she thought that I didn't want to go already. Wtf. Really, I'm not that shallow you know. I'm not all upset and stuff just because I lost a few things or because things didn't go my way. But really, I've been really bothered about what's happening within Cool Kids, not so much with Putri because we're fine, but more with Laura and Jon. Things have really gotten worse since The Confession. I mean, sure it did help for a while, but everything changed back to the way it was. There's so much lies, or rather, incomplete truths, and pretence all over again. It was as thought The Confession never happened and everybody's fake to everybody again. I've always wondered if I should point fingers or not, or whether it was everyone's fault. We've always said that everybody's to blame, but seriously, really? I don't mean to say anything but, I don't know, maybe some of us should just think again. Sometimes I really feel unappreciated for the things I do or say. I know writing things here won't help much but I really need to write about it. I'm not asking for a "Thank you" or anything, but a small gesture of appreciation would very much be appropriate. Sometimes I feel like I don't even matter much to you. I don't know about Putri, but this is how I feel. We don't even communicate like last time. Now seriously, am I being oversensitive now? Am I being very unreasonable? Am I being very selfish to think that some people just think about themselves and not others? "No more secrets." Indeed, but that's just crap, seriously. I really miss the times when we'd just hang out happily, peacefully, without much thought. I don't know why everything's so complicated. I don't know why things can't be like how things are between Putri and I - so carefree. We're so happy and everything. Is it really hard to be happy? Is it really impossible to hang out together again like last time? Are 4 of us really that superficial? People used to doubt our friendship, and so am I now. I'm feeling really insecure and unassured. What happened to the 11thfeb pact? What happened to "no matter what we'll stick to each other"? What happened to Cool Kids? There are reasons to why I acted the way I did to you. I hate going to bed every night, thinking of how to mend the situation. I hate how I'm always the one initiating things. I hate how I'm always holding myself back from messaging you. I hate how I'm always pretending that everything between us is okay when it clearly isn't. I hate how I'm always dropping hints to tell you that everything isn't okay. I hate how I can't be straightforward. I hate how I'm so affected by this. I hate how much all of you mean to me, and how you've hurt me. I really want to solve this. But I'm really out of ideas. School's started, and my timetable isn't that bad. The modules are great, and so are the lecturers. It's gonna be a breeze for me this sem, but with the problems I'm having, I doubt I'll actually enjoy this semester. I feel so disoriented this semester for some reason. Michelle feels it too. I just hope everything will start to pick up and be like how they were a few months back. And how am I relieving myself of all these nonsense? Retail therapy. I've been spending a lot of money on stuff, some of which I don't really need. Gah. ********* On a lighter note, we celebrated my sister's birthday today. It was a belated celebration, yup. I ended up not following them down to Zouk cause I was just too tired. She got back home really wasted though.  The theme was Agents. Thus the white shirt and all the what nots. My agent name was La Mer and my sister was Sez. I can't remember what Putri's and Jun Wei's ones were. Hehe.  Yep. Good company, good dinner.
Dancing in the MoonlightTuesday, October 17, 2006A video I made from all the videos that we (Laura, Putri and Jonathan) took when we were out together. Let it load, it's a 5 min+ clip, so enjoy! (:
Bad Sleeping HabitsSaturday, October 14, 2006Hello. Do you have bad sleeping habits? I for one, certainly do. And it's bringing me nothing good too. I'm a very heavy sleeper. So what does that exactly mean? Heavy sleeping, according to Wikipedia.Com, is a sleep disorder in which one falls into a deep sleep in which one cannot wake up, even with the use of alarm clocks. For my case, when my Mom wakes me up, I don't even know. She claims that I'd push her hand away and mutter nonsense! LOL, I don't even know I do that lah. It's probably a sub-conscious thing. Alamak, I think in future, if my house were to be robbed right, I wouldn't even know it. Horrible. I probably have this sleeping disorder because of my really bad sleeping habits. Apparently, sleeping disorders are caused by staying up too late, waking up really early, and overstimulating ourselves with late-night activities like TV, or the Internet. Hoho I bet you're feeling guilty now, aren't you? Haha. But really, if waking up really early causes sleeping disorders, maybe we should go late to school everyday! Yay, another excuse for being late. Mr Fauzi Wan Kanasai (the teacher): Adam, why are you late for class?! Adam: Oh uhh, well, I've read on the Internet that waking up really early causes sleeping disorders. I don't want to have sleeping disorders because later next time ah, people rob my house also I don't know, then how? See, I'm training myself for the future. Mr Fauzi Wan Kanasai: !#$%^& Heh, okay whatever. There are a a few things you can do to like, avoid these sleeping disorders, like fixing a bedtime and an awakening time, avoiding really long afternoon naps, and stuff like that. If you're really keen on knowing more, I suggest you head over to this website. Honestly ah, I really need help. How do you stop being a heavy sleeper? Alarm clocks and phone calls don't work for me. Don't believe? You can ask my friends. Haha. If you have a suggestion, let me know okay. I'm in dire need of help. This is just one example of sleeping disorders. There's many out there and you might wanna check it out here. Do you have a sleeping disorder?
Celine Just Called MeSunday, October 08, 2006Hoorah I'm back to non-comprehensive titles that make no sense and has absolutely nothing to do with the content. So I'm going to surprise you with what I'm going to talk about! It's outdated, I know, but I'm going to talk about my very eventful last weekend! Okay you know, that just sounds gramatically wrong, but I don't care. :D ******* On Friday, 29th September, I went to somewhere that brings back so much memories, somewhere that's so nostalgic, and somewhere that I've never been to for a long time - West Coast Park. We (Putri and I) took 176 from Jurong East. Oh yah I forgot, haha. I showed her around Jurong East and brought her to the Library. HAHAHAHA. Our library is teh shit. (Jurong prevails, right Rui Ming? Haha) Anyway, while on the bus, we noticed something rather, interesting.  Going..  going..  gone!  The old man didn't really seem to be happy. Oh well. Senior citizens - they always seem to be unhappy. -rolls eyes- Anyway, this isn't the highlight of the day, so I shall blog about them some other day. Hoho, okay so we had fun on the bus because Putri was being so suaku. So we reached West Coast. And one of the weirdest things we saw, was this:  Like, what on Earth is this Nokia headset doing at such a random place? I reckon someone was probably having phone sex in the middle of the night when suddenly his wife came by and caught him red-handed. HOHOHO. So he decides to throw the headset away and run for his life, and ending up being rundown by a 16-wheeler on the West Coast Highway. Mhmm.. There was construction going on at the beach, and it was all fenced up so we couldn't see over. But hey, the barriers were nicely spray painted with flowers, trees, butterflies, and other pretty and colourful things. Of course lah take photos. Hoorah!   What a stupid picture! We look like those kind of students that were caught talking in class, and have to go back to the classroom and face the wall! Putri: Ehh how to do this Maths question ah? Adam: Aiyah, you just add this to this, and then.. Mr Fauzi Wan Kanasai aka the Fucked Up Teacher: YOU TWO! TALKING DURING MY CLASS! GO BEHIND AND FACE TO WALL! Putri & Adam: Knnbccb fucking hell palabutoh !#$%&^ Yeah, those kind of situations. The sun was out, and the weather was fine. The grass was green (if it were another colour I'd be freaked) and the skies were blue (this too!). The haze wasn't that bad (yet) so we decided to take advantage of the situation. MORE PHOTOS!   Oh look, another senior citizen. So we got bored of the grass and looking at senior citizens jogging around West Coast. We moved on and went to the playground thingy nearby and decided to get dizzy and nauseous on this harmless little thing that proved to be quite, harmful.  See, I'm actually very happy on the thing, still quite normal.. still able to stand straight. Then Putri got on, and I decided to take her for a little spin.  We took photos and a video while we were spinning. God, halfway through we couldn't take it, we jumped off and went in all directions except straight. Haha I think Putri looks very pretty in this picture. (: Off to the Jungle Gym! We raced to the top, and we ALL know who won right? Yes, it's me. Fwahahaha. Sitting up there just brings back memories. It's funny how they (whoever "they" may be) actually managed to clean off all the vandalisms. But it's funny, because after they clean it off, other people will vandalise again.  This was taken in 2004, I think before my O's. I was probably there to relieve stress or something. I was probably there with Maisarah. LOL, because I remember something really embarrassing that happened while we were there. Wanna know what? Haha too bad.  It was really sunny that I had to squint my eyes a lot. I look so different aye. Nyahahahha okay I was looking at some 2004 and 2005 pictures of my visit to West Coast and HOOOO-LEEEEEEE SHEEEE-AAAAT. I look so different. Never mind that. So we moved on to Pandan Reservoir! The place is really breezy and the sun was setting!  I couldn't help but to just suck all of it in. I was enjoying every moment of it. Then we decided to sit down to relax, until..
 gah! More senior citizens!! ******* The following day, it was off to CHIJ Katong Convent Primary! Laura, Jo, Putri and I volunteered to help out with the dunking machine. We were all the dunkees for the afternoon session! Yay, it was fun, really.  So Putri went up first. Wah she ah, act brave only. No lah actually I asked her to go up first, because she was the youngest amongst us. Well okay I THINK that's the reason, but it could be something else I don't know. I have STM so don't blame me.  WHAT AN AWFULLY BIG SPLASH!! Haha okay so that was fun. But you see that stupid girl that I circled and stuff in red? Yea she sure is stupid, and she sure is a bitch. OMFG I think she's only like what, Primary 5 or something. Is KC like bringing up bitches or fine ladies? More like the former, I'd say. So why was this kid a bitch, and why were we so bothered? Well, this is going to sound childish, so brace yourself. It was our turn to be dunked and all, and this little bitch, who was in the morning session for the station, kept wanting to be dunked. She was so fat, and furthermore, she had no permission from her parents, and if anything were to happen to her, we (plus the teachers-in-charge) would be responsible for her fat ass. Mhmm. Fuck off, little bitch. It was fun kicking water into your chubby little face and calling you a bitch to your clueless face. Hehehe. Thanks for being the joke of the day. It started pouring and we were running about in the rain. How fun! After the rain subsided, it was time for the rest of us to be dunked!     Putri and I cabbed back to my place. I needed to shower and change because I was going for Michelle's Birthday Dinner at Hard Rock Cafe, and Putri had to go to her Grandma's near my place. Hoho. ******* I took a bus down to Hard Rock Cafe, and met Michelle and the gang for dinner!    Hoho! I hope you enjoyed that! (: After dinner, Michelle, Reina, Joyce and I head down to MoS! We had to hang around till it was 12am, because Michelle would officially turn 18 by then! LOL, it was quite scary because we were scared that she'd get bounced, but she didn't! Hoorah!  Ahh, Clarke Quay. So we walked around MoS and stayed in Smoove most of the time. But the girls were really nice and decided to hang in every room for a while. And after that, we got really thirsty, so we bought ourselves like, two jugs of Vodka Lime. Fuck, it tasted so, damn, sweet. We could barely taste the Vodka. Horrible, horrible, horrible. Anyway, thanks to them, I now have a "trademark smile".  We danced the night away, and went home all tired and stuff. What a great weekend. ******* Okay you know everyone's been talking about the haze and all. It's really really bad. Fuck I can see the ray of lights and stuff. Sure it looks nice and all, and I always wanted to take a photo but I have no camera with me, but it's deadly! Maybe Indonesia's hidden motive is to kill Singapore's ONLY resource - the people! Heh.
Temporary ClosureMonday, October 02, 2006Boo. For those who've been coming here often, and have been greeted with something like this:  ..my sincere apologies! My email address that I used for the administrative stuff, was an old hotmail account that I didn't check regularly, so it got like, deactivated and I didn't receive all the emails, reminding me to renew my domain. I didn't set an alternative email too, so I totally forgot, and they just shut my domain down like that. It was fucking troublesome and annoying to get everything up again but well whose fault was it, heh. Anyway, I'm thinking of changing my domain name, because I've had it for like, 2 years running. I was thinking of something like, bedroomsessions.com or something. But it sounds like some record label doesn't it? Ahh, I'll get updates as soon as possible! What do you suggest? (and if I pick yours, I'll host you!)
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